One minute I'm getting ready for the day, trying to get both kids in the car for a routine four-month check-up and the next we're scheduling appointments with specialists and talking surgery.
Sometimes I just want to take a minute to sob. But then I remember I still need to get dinner on the table.
Today we discovered that my little Lucy girl's skull is fusing together too quickly for her little developing brain.
It started out as a cautionary, "Let's get a second opinion" from my pediatrician but soon I was on the phone trying to get a last minute sitter for William (thank God for friends like Amy!) and calling to tell Brian he needed to take the first train out of downtown so we could go to radiology together. All within two hours.
Lucy was a champ during her ultrasound.
Not so much during her x-rays. No pictures to show of that traumatic strap-down event.
But I didn't need any x-rays or ultrasound readings. I already knew. It's the mommy hunch.
Everyone says it needs to be done. And everyone says it's surgery they do all the time. But it's not their little Lucy girl so they can keep their calming comments to themselves.
Right now I'm in research mode but I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm also pissed.
We already went through the scary hospital stay once before. Haven't we paid our dues? Why can't my kids have the normal stuff like tubes in their ears or pink eye or strep throat? Why does it have to include an ICU and machines and wires and things that require a pediatric neurosurgeon?
But life doesn't keep tallys so here we are.
We'll know our game plan tomorrow once we meet with our specialist. Please keep our family in your prayers.
I'm thinking of you and your family!
ReplyDeletei'm so sorry - my prayers are with your family!
ReplyDeleteJen,
ReplyDeleteI'd take both your kiddos again in a HEARTBEAT. You and your little family are in our prayers. We are around ALL weekend so if you need something just ask. I'm also around until 4 Tues, Wed, and Thursday next week.
Thinking of you. Hugs.
P.S. Go ahead and sob. You need it.
Whenever you need reassurance that everything with Lucy will be fine in the end, just look at perfectly wonderful William. In the meantime, we'll all be praying like crazy.
ReplyDeleteEverything will work out. It ALWAYS does.
ReplyDeleteThe Logues are praying.
oh Jenny and Brian my heart goes out to you.I will pray extra hard for you all and your little Lucy girl,we just never know what God has planned for us,just keep the faith,love and prayers,Nancy
ReplyDeleteJenny - thinking of you. I hear you on being pissed, I'd be right there too. Try to stay positive while you wait for results/recommendations. (my latest motto our house is 'nobody is happy if mommy isn't happy.') He will get you through this.
ReplyDeleteWilliam is welcome to stay with us whenever you need him to. I bet the kids would love having him over to play. Please let me know if there is anything you need: food, babysitting, groceries, house cleaning... You name it.
ReplyDeleteWe will keep your family in our prayers.
Jen,
ReplyDeleteI wish there was more I could do from down here. So I will do the best I can and pray very very hard for your daugther, son, hubby and you. And I will ask others to do the same.
Laura
This is so, so scary, Jenny. You can totally sob.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking about you and sending up prayers and wishing I could bring you dinner.
Your Lucy sounds like she's a trooper and a pure joy.
Hugs,
stephanie@metropolitanmama.net